I almost got drunk at school at 14
Where I almost made out with the Homecoming Queen
Who almost went on to be Miss Texas
But lost to a slut with much bigger breastes
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
I almost loved you
I almost wished you would've loved me too

I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did five years and then seven more
Cause I almost got bopped for a fight with a thug
Cause he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cause you ran away
And I wish I would have had the nerve to ask you to stay

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
almost had you
And I didn't even know it

And you kept me guessin'
And now I'm destined
To spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would a loved me too

Here I go thinkin' bout all the things I could have done
I'm gonna need a forklift cause all the baggage weighs a ton (baggage weighs a ton)
I know we had our problems, I can't remember one.

I almost forgot to say something else
And if I can't fit it in I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessin'
And now I'm destined
To spend my time missin' you
And I almost had you
(Almost had you)
Almost had you

I almost wished you would've loved me too
(wished you would've loved me too)

Nelly.com!

Hjälp mig att vinna, rösta på mina skor här!

The girl is back in town! U'll get to know more tomorrow, off to da BBQ again!  :D

Some pictures from the BBQ with the 'old girls'. :)

Today I said the words that are hard: It's enough. That's it!

Going home tomorrow! Wiii!!!

Hot Hot Hot!!!

I love the sun, so don't really complain, but when the thermometer is reaching over + 35 C, u kind of get sweaty by doing nothing. We had a smal football match on Sunday and after playing for 2 hours we gave up, melting away like ice sculptures in the spring sun. 


My life evolves around my friends this summer, without any comparison. And I'm thrilled to be abel to stay next semester in Uppsala! Gonna do Geography as my major, hopeful some Bio and some Serbian. Aim to please. 

1 - read 
2 - read 

I need to be in bed snoozing away and not be listening to bad youtube-music. Me, N & E decided that late night turns in to mornig around 03.30 - 04.00, so, guess good mornign is in place.

Health is not the same as your dress size or what the scales tell you. But nobody really believe that.  

Beyoncé - Get Me Bodied - The Beyoncé Experience

so, I finaly found my journal, and i think I wrote about 8 pages in it, just to summarize the last 3 days. I had a really important talk with myself, and the conclusion is that I give up. I'm not gonna try to make people like me, and definitely not gonna try to make the other sex like me. I hate girls who is so dependent on what they think. They are just stupid with non existing self-confidence and awareness and I have always loaded them. I guess thats why I have hated my self so much this semester, and what good has it given me? I know this is one of those contribution on a blog that you (who ever u are) don't necessarily want to read, and you can choose to not to.

My lovelife (not just lovelife, my whole life, I have been kind of blunt, jaded, boring, unpleasant and mean, and that's not me)  this spring has been through movies and stories. And friends. Bless my friends, but it's now time to stop being a hobby psychologist and abreact. It is just time. This city is dead to the world during summer, and I pretty glad it is, and it gives me some time to reload, and stop pity myself. 

I always have had a fascination about how people see me, and expect me to behave, and that often depends on my look. I do not see myself as beautiful, pretty or sweet, years of bullying has prevented good thoughts to enter and I'm not your typical size zero, (kind of fat) and I'm to tall, how fun is it to be 6'0"??? All jeans/pants/jackets and jumpers are to short. Even a normal knee-length dress is like a mini on me.  

My way to act: not show any laziness (the fat part), don't take up to much space (the tall and fat part), don't wear a dress or pants, it dosn't fit (well, maybe I should be walking around like the The Nightingale), I should wear make-up, and I nearly never does it and when I'm rude people get this big eyes and I get a scolding, don't take up any space! Alex, your always so nice, stop being bold... I do not fit in it the Swedish Jante - law! A really stupid off-the-record-law about how you should act:

1. Do not think that you are something   
2. Do not think that you are as good as us
3. Do not think that ypou are wiser than us
4. You must not fool yourself to think that yoy are better tha us
5. Do not think that you know more than us
6. Do not think that you are superior to us 
7. Do not think that you are good at anything
8. You must not laugh at us
9. Do not think that someone cares about you
10. Do not think that you can learn something
    
    Bracing, isn't it? 

Had a boring evening with D's hat and put clown- feets on my door

the deal is this: no London this summer/fall cuz I'm such a stupid girl, I will get myself killed some day. My doctor never ever want to see me again after this 2 operations and I hope the same (prefer meet him a bar or somethign, cuz hes one of those young hot ones... Go Grey's)